betulacarelica's journal

entries are organised with newest at the top. i just add a new entry in plain text whenever i feel like it.
you can search for specific subjects in your browser (eg. f3 in google chrome). i add a list of tags i think are relevant at the end of entries. you can also search by random keywords or by date (dd/mm/yy). if youre on mobile or use another browser, errr idk how you search, but you can google it lol

list of all currently in-use hashtags (alphabetical):
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its scary to care(y)

entry #3 -- 16/02/26 @ 06:31

i always say that i hate social media but ive never really thought about why. there are definitely plenty of reasons to dislike the stuff on it and the people who own it, but i think moreso its just the way i feel about being on there and actively using them. i realised earlier that i think im just a very reserved person; i dont really like being publicly 'accessible' to anyone and everyone - im not great at maintaining relationships unless theyre super important to me, so making internet friends feels like pressure - but also i think im just one of those people who gets really in my own head about caring about stuff. i wasnt aware i did it so much, but i think i end up doing a lot of the 'yeah yknow whatever i dont care about this its just kinda a thing i did'. being passionate about stuff is scary. i dont think im the only person from my generation to do it either, obviously.
im actually a pretty emotional and philosophical person, and i think at heart probably a bit of a romantic (like in the conceptual way, not the literal romance way), bc i do end up just Thinking and Feeling A Lot (tm). i dont usually express much of that tho, i think.
the last month has been really insane, and a lot has happened irl. im not gonna write any of it out here lol, but mostly i just felt like it was worth mentioning and making a record of i guess. i do still want to use this blog regularly. i probably will not do that, but yknow. i can add it to the list of stuff i do really for sure definitely wanna do, but end up being too disorganised to keep on top of. its a very long list.

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psst you gotta actually update

entry #2 -- 11/01/26 @ 17:59

i like how the point of this site was to simplify the journal writing. and yet i forgot it existed and didnt update the journal.
theres not much i can add here really, mostly ive just been sleeping lmao. ive been meaning to write more, but ive not quite gotten into the swing of things yet. ive got some stuff coming up irl which is occupying most of my brain space right now. i think once thats out of the way ill just try and focus entirely on writing for a while and see if i can get back into the swing of things.
it has been along time since i wrote anything consistently. ive basically not done anything properly since i finished uni in 2024. of course, my brain avoids anything that feels like obligation, so when i had homework to do id do personal writing instead, and now i have nothing to do except get the personal writing done, i cant even get started! that figures.
just a small update for now. idk how ill do these going forward. i mean, ill try and do something regularly. maybe there will even be multiple entries per day if i have something else to say later on. for now, its just this i guess!!

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like a blog but messier

entry #1 -- 07/01/26 @ 18:25

adding my first entry cause im setting my site up anyway so that makes sense. if i have something here at least, then i can test formatting and whatnot.
today is a slowwww day, but yesterday & the day before i spent the whole time setting up my own personal little dashboard in html that i can just open from my pc. since i have trouble focusing, and my laptop is plugged into my tv via hdmi, i wanted something i could put on the big second screen that would help out. i find that these days the only reason i get distracted and want to check social media is to see if anything is going on. im also an earthquake hobbyist (is that what you should call it?? lmao) so another distraction is running livestreams or globalquake. i added the emsc websocket to my dashboard alongside an rss news feed from a few different sources, so i can see if anything important happens without having to open twitter and get distracted by how annoying people are.
i tried setting up a little rotating 'stuff of the day' thing too but it doesnt work very well. but i do have notification sounds and a music player, a clock, a stopwatch, a links section, and a notepad!! so hopefully it will help my productivity.
of course, technically, i got distracted by making it in the first place, but when its done its done lmao

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